Theophany

 The Most Holy Theophany rolls around again and it is my third year in 1734, or what is now Young Tradition and became the Alchemical Rite  When I go under the waters, this will be the third year of growth, the third time I have agreed to re enter this path, or to stay on it. When I was twenty five i made the decision to pursue the Craft it was honestly pretty damn frutiless up until a few years ago when I renounced organised religion and too the Three Degrees. Since I have taken the Three Degrees several times over, always coming back to the Craft, always making myself a sort of baby again, always rehoning my direction while not completely giving up what I knew before.

The first time I came to 1734 and decided to formally give myself to it on the Theophany, I had been dealing with them, learning about it, thriving in a community of the small minded and been cut off by them and was feeling pretty hurt. I really had to think about if I care about this path and decided that I did, the group I had belonged to did not matter. The path was worth pursuing.  Last year it seemed we were almost up to some good work and I was forgiving the piccadillos of certain people when again, for thinking, I was cut off in a nasty way and again, really had to think about if I needed this shit.

At each step Young Tradition went through a different phase. This page was created because of my first exile and maintained because of my second. As I enter a third year, embracing more than ever my old Christian heritage, but in a mystical and Craftly way, I am aware that what survives is something newer and strongr. I may have been cut off from small minded and nasty people ,but I wasn't cut off off from this path. I couldn't be, because they did not give me the path. And because I was slowly forming what I found and what I received into something new, something that was my own. This year, this third year, it is what I am giving myself to again.

The Sisters of Charity are an interesting group of Catholic sisters, because of the way they were established, they do not take perpetual vows like traditional nuns. They must recommit every year, and I think that's so important. It's not enough to come once, or as Jung said, we must continue to always be initiated, and so here I am again, renouncing whatever all the initiations meant, and to a certain extent, renouncing a lot of old and useless knowledge, understanding that things will ahve to reshape and reform, and coming to my Baptism again.

But what does it mean?

The night is drawing on. Too much thing has led me to ten o clock and I still have not taken the bath or the baptism. What it means, what it means is that I commit to this way of life again. I commit to follow this path of wisdom. I commit to follow my lord into it, to bring the good news to annouce and live in the kingdom of God. It also means, to an extent that I agree to I know not what. I agree to walk this way of love and I begin, once again, to study, to become a catechumen again, to become not a high priest or a great expert but an initiate. I agree to become... new.